#they freak me out man
So I found out my fear/repulsion of clusters is an (almost) actual thing.
Trypophobia: “the fear of clustered holes…usually small holes in organic objects, such as lotus seed heads or bubbles in batter…triggering reactions like itchy skin, nausea and a general feeling of discomfort.”
However, it is not recognized by the APA’s Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. Thousands of people do claim to be affected by these fears/repulsions. Good to know I’m not the only one to become physically ill at the sight (or even thought) of such things. Seriously, I saw a picture of eggs clustered on a beetle’s back and I started gagging. Same for a picture of water droplets on a lightbulb.
I know. I have issues.
Kind of a stupid thing to be grossed out by though, huh?
"For a few years at school I tried to play the roles they wanted me to play, but it became less and less interesting to ponce around the place. Even now, when I sometimes think of doing a play, I think of rehearsal rooms and people hugging and everyone talking over cups of coffee because they are nervous. It’s both very touching and it makes me a little nauseous and claustrophobic. Too much talk. I don’t rehearse at all in film if I can help it. In talking a character through, you define it. And if you define it, you kill it dead."
#this is so relevant it almost makes me cry